This is the first journal post i've made in quite some time. I suppose I should fill in what followers I may have on here as to what's been happening.
well, first of all, i've been back at college, and in the residence halls no less. Unfortunately, my school ethic is almost nonexistent due to mild-severe depression and anxiety, but i've been talking with a counselor and have been feeling better.
My grandfather passed away on December 19, gods rest his soul, and that's helped with aforementioned depression.
I've been struggling with a gender identity crisis for about as long as the depression's been around, and that hasn't helped, but i've been making headway there too, and once i have a steady job and income, and a way to get to Fargo, where the nearest Gender Therapist is, i plan on making my way there to talk to them.
I had a question for you folks as well, should you read this. I have a friend who i have had feelings for, and had an abortive one night stand with (awkward night, almost went all the way, but awkward), and who said had feelings for me the night of, but has been with other people and has been completely oblivious to my almost blatant affection. They're currently dating, and seem happy, but it tears me up inside whenever i talk to them, and they come to me for advice a lot. How should i go about telling them there's still something there for me, and if they aren't willing to give a relationship a go, go about breaking the friendship off, because i can't keep stringing myself out on the vague hope that they'll notice me.